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I have had this piece of old luggage  that I have carried with me my entire life.  At times I didn’t notice it too much, because I turned it into a backpack, but it grew larger and heavier as time went on.  As long as I had distractions, I would forget it was there, but like an elephant in the room, everyone noticed how it was destroying me, causing me to be more burdened, and thrown off balance from it’s weight. Eventually, I had completely lost my way.

That old backpack carried years of unforgiveness, bitterness, and pain from my past.  I thought I could just talk through things with those who wronged me, ( parents)  and we could get all the closure and forgiveness, and all would be well with my soul, but when they  didn’t respond to my gesture, but accused me of just wanting to hurt them by talking to them, shunned me for half a year, then called one day as if all is well,  thoughts of closure were left unfulfilled.

I started sensing some ‘strangeness’ when my adult children would be with me, they had become so concerned about this  “pack” on my back how was sucking the life out of me, they got together with dad and called for an intervention. He never said anything to me, he had a’ hands off wait and see what happens as I pray approach.’  As I explained to him, it is like the scripture which says, two are better than one, when one falls in a ditch, the other is there to lift him out. I had felt my husband knew I was in the ditch, but was sitting under a tree to see if I could find a way out on my own. Two of my children are more vocal and will call me out on things, and the breakthrough began.

After conversations with one of my sons, I started to realize how much I needed more accountability and started bravely getting back involved in the women’s ministry.  I jokingly say all the time, “there are two types of women in the world… toxic, and non toxic”.  I grew up with the second type, and I think I have had a fear of women ever since.  The new subject of study?  Humility. Have I been blessed so far?  Well, I have met all the non-toxic, full of loving Balm of Gilead types!

After a long talk with my only daughter, who is ready to have her first child, I got view into some things God wanted to expose, deal with, and so it began.  I had a long talk with hubby that night, and as I prayed both as I fell to sleep and  when I woke up, God showed me a few MAJOR things.

I asked the Lord to please help me get over these things,  I don’t want to be crippled by them!  He gave me a scripture Matt 18:22 Jesus *said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.”  In forgiveness, did it matter if we had talked it through? No. Just forgive… ALL of it!  Once and for all!  O.K.  I will with your help,  The Bitterness- lay it aside!   Eph 4:1  Yes, Lord, I will. This burden has been my constant companion for so many years, you will have to be my strength, but I am ready, your love has lifted this burden, and I am so new in you today.

I went straight to my computer to check Morning and Evening on line, C.H. Spurgeon. I was so blessed by it, I felt sure God changed the message to fit my need!

“I will help thee, saith the Lord.”—Isaiah 41:14.

HIS morning let us hear the Lord Jesus speak to each one of us: “I will help thee.” “It is but a small thing for Me, thy God, to help thee. Consider what I have done already. What! not help thee? Why, I bought thee with My blood. What! not help thee? I have died for thee; and if I have done the greater, will I not do the less? Help thee! It is the least thing I will ever do for thee; I have done more, and will do more. Before the world began I chose thee. I made the covenant for thee. I laid aside My glory and became a man for thee; I gave up My life for thee; and if I did all this, I will surely help thee now. In helping thee, I am giving thee what I have bought for thee already. If thou hadst need of a thousand times as much help, I would give it thee; thou requirest little compared with what I am ready to give. ‘Tis much for thee to need, but it is nothing for me to bestow. ‘Help thee?’ Fear not! If there were an ant at the door of thy granary asking for help, it would not ruin thee to give him a handful of thy wheat; and thou art nothing but a tiny insect at the door of My all-sufficiency. ‘I will help thee.'”
O my soul, is not this enough? Dost thou need more strength than the omnipotence of the United Trinity? Dost thou want more wisdom than exists in the Father, more love than displays itself in the Son, or more power than is manifest in the influences of the Spirit? Bring hither thine empty pitcher! Surely this well will fill it. Haste, gather up thy wants, and bring them here—thine emptiness, thy woes, thy needs. Behold, this river of God is full for thy supply; what canst thou desire beside? Go forth, my soul, in this thy might. The Eternal God is thine helper!

“Fear not, I am with thee, oh, be not dismay’d!
I, I am thy God, and will still give thee aid.”

Just as Christian in Pilgrim’s Progress was not even close to completing his journey when his burden fell from his back, I too have a long way to go.250px-pilgrims_progress_22I will be writing so much more as He is doing His work in me!

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When I awoke this morning, I had a scripture going through my mind; “Matthew 11:28-30 Come unto me, all [ye] that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.  For my yoke [is] easy, and my burden is light.

That passage in Matthew has always been one of my favorite life verses, getting me through many times of hardship, and sorrow.  When I think about how difficult things get when I try to face the challenges on my own, it mystifies me why I even try to tackle them alone in the first place.  When He says to take my yoke upon you, my yoke is easy… He is asking us to share our burdens with Him, let Him carry the weight of them for us. Yes, we will be there seeing the action first hand, we don’t get a “pass” to get out of the difficult times, but He is there along side, attached to us, by choice, saying “I’ve got this, you just walk next to me”.

While I was looking up yokes on-line to understand this before writing, I happened upon a youtube video of some Amish folks ploughing a field with two  yoked oxen.  The oxen were given small feed baskets of hay  to eat as they ploughed. It was so peaceful, no hardship for the oxen at all, only for the farmer ( smile ).  I thought about how fitting the above scripture was in that scene.  Jesus was familiar with these scenes, they were seasonal occurrences for Him.  The yoke is something we don’t relate to, so this passage goes under- appreciated. He is saying He wants to be a fellow laborer in all or endeavors. Don’t miss that.  There are some things he asks US to do though, as well.

1. Come unto Me.   2. Take my yoke upon you   3. Learn of Me.

First we need to be willing to come to Him without excuses, buts , justifications, or hesitation… just come to Him, acknowledging that He is the only one who has the answers, even if you’re not sure about that, what have you got to lose?  He takes us as we are, we don’t need to clean up our act, or give up things before we come to Him, just be real. He takes care of all that.  There is nothing so wretched that He cannot forgive, His Grace is sufficient to forgive  the most heinous sin. He is the one who justifies us, meaning: ” just ‘s if I’d ” (never done wrong).
Romans 3:21-24 But now a righteousness from God, apart from law, has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. 22 This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
24 and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

Take my yoke upon you, it is easy, my burden is light… There is a real lesson here, if He is the strong one, and you are yoked to Him, you would imagine your part would be to just sail along for the ride!  When my husband and I go kayaking, he does the lions share of the paddling.  I can always tell when he stops, as the weight of my stroke increases tremendously.  How very important it is for us to be in tandem with our Lord, staying firmly fixed on him. Letting Him be the one who carries our burdens, so our faces can reflect His glory, peace and rest, juxtaposed to the gnarled brow of hardship and angst.

Learn of me ; for I am meek and humble of heart.  What is it to be meek?  To have infinite resources at your command, but a complete, 100%  lack of self interest. All the power, complete control and humility for the sake of others. Can you imagine today’s philanthropist, if they had these qualities, it would be a wonderful thing, but each one has to blow the biggest horn, and contact as many press agencies as possible so we all know how great they are! That is NOT meekness by the way.  One example of meekness I love is in the garden of Gethsemane,  Jesus is praying His last prayer in the Garden before he is arrested… Luke 22:44 And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.

Luke 22:45 And when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow,

Luke 22:46 And said unto them, Why sleep ye? rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation.

Luke 22:47 And while he yet spake, behold a multitude, and he that was called Judas, one of the twelve, went before them, and drew near unto Jesus to kiss him.

Luke 22:48 But Jesus said unto him, Judas, betrayest thou the Son of man with a kiss?

Luke 22:49 When they which were about him saw what would follow, they said unto him, Lord, shall we smite with the sword?

Luke 22:50 And one of them smote the servant of the high priest, and cut off his right ear.

Luke 22:51 And Jesus answered and said, Suffer ye thus far. And he touched his ear, and healed him.

Jesus in the middle of this chaotic scene, being arrested by a great  torch carrying mob, cared about the one man, a servant.  He healed his ear in the midst of his own betrayal, arrest, and soon to be crucifixion.  That is what I believe to be the definition of meek. He says if we learn of Him we will find rest for your souls. It makes perfect sense to me, as I have looked at this all morning, I have truly been at rest, he’s got this.  My financial struggles are nothing to Him, My physical ailments are a breeze when I am anchored to Him, because my soul is at Peace and Rest.

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